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Starting School

2006-07-23T22:23:00.000+08:00

It's been weeks since i last updated my blog... sorry guys... haa.. tomorrow starts school le... feeling nothing at all... have to work and study... seems tiring but haiz... don't what i want to write also...

the feelings have not been fading... it's still remain unchanged or i should say is becoming stronger... i don't know why... it really breaks my heart when your nick seems sad... i don't whether it's true anot... i wanted to chat and asked... but i told myself to forget it... not that you won't tell me or what... it's just that i don't want you to think i'm busybody or what... or maybe i don't want you to misunderstand me...

but why... tomorrow gonna start school le and yet i'm still thinking of all these... i should have concentrate on my study... i'm trying hard to let everything go... but...you don't know everything at all... i've been praying hard for you, your exams, your safety and your everything... do u know that... i doubt so... why am i doing all these for you... maybe ppl think that i'm too naive... yes, indeed i was... but i just coudn't control myself for doing all these...

i was thinking if one day u know everything of what i did for you, will you come back to me or will you just tell me that i am too naive for all these? your image will always remain unchanged in my mind and inside my heart... i will wait for you but can you don't let me wait too long... i don't think you will know cause you don't even have my blog... or shall i say what if you have, will you go and read every of my post... shall i tell in in person about this or shall i keep it to myself and wait for miracle? haiz... life is hell for me...

Yawn Yawn

2006-07-03T19:47:00.000+08:00

haiz... today as usual... went to work... actually don't feel like working today... but then don't want to pretend to be sick... so just went to work loh... was damn sleepy... woke up le then slept again... haiz... was rushing out today cause was kinda late... missed my first bus... omg... then nvm... the second bus too squeezy... then waited for the third bus... haa... my very first time going to work so damn late... it's not really late lah... just later than my usual days...

type in those data till i wanna fell alseep... was really going to close... i forced to open my eyes... if not i sure sleep on the table... somemore the words so small... think my degree gonna increase soon... haiz...

actually today i'm going to scold ppl inside my blog de... but then tired and lazy to type... cause the stupid idoitic story very long... haa... now i typed words also having problems loh... think tomorrow den continue... can't take it liao... haa...

miss uu... i miss u alot... do u?

Happie

2006-07-02T22:36:00.000+08:00

i think i'm going to update by blog every sunday... is like my previous post also falls on last sunday if i'm not wrong... one whole week had been working... had lots of hours of OT... omg... was damn tiring... today was so sleepy and tiring... woke up early in the morning... extra early to work... cause today no bus to my work place... had a long walk... and the damn idoitic weather was so freaking hot... was sweating like hell... not familiar with the route... was walking the wrong way... omg... had to u-turn back... haiz... i think i'm not goin to work on weekends... how i wish i can... haiz... but this days won't happen unless they want me rest loh...

went there no ppl... only saw nigh shift ppl... i can only said that there were less than 10 ppl... omg... i was the only one inside the office... haiz... was doing my stuff and wanted to go home at around 10 plus... but then in e end don't wish too... my colleague came at ten plus... followed by the bigger rank de at twelve... i was like... speechless... she told me saturday and sunday can come anytime i want... next week i'm not going there so early... haa... they treated me popcorn chicken... was so damn hungry... i can say that i haven even eaten one good meal since i started working... only had one meal per day which was my dinner... actualli can treat it as supper too... c how late i ate... haiz... if not din eat loh... just went pasa malam for my snacks... imagine if there was no pasa malam, i'm can go on diet liao... tink i'm going to lose weight soon... haa... better loh... dun need to exercise...

my position there also have to walk up and down to collect data loh... can exercise also... nxt sunday i'm going to enjoy myself... was thinking whether to go kent's birthday chalet anot... cause me working... and i can't take leave cause i'm still under probation... haiz... shang nao jing... haiz... have to make my decision on thursday... cause have to inform cindy... but if i went on friday night after my work, i can't stay overnight too... cause sat got work... haiz... realli cham sia... everything squeeze together... i'm such a busy person... haaa... lots of dates... no lah... jk nia... i even prepared a notebook since i worked... cause i got STM mah... keep forgetting things de... haa...

haiz... tomorrow got work... so damn tired... not enough sleep... so wat's the difference between going to school and going for work... for working have to wake up so early... earlier than going to school... haiz... ma fan... ytd saw my dream phone at paragon... omg... i was freaking siao loh... was jumping like crazy gal... i'm aiming for that... haa... so was damn nice... but still managed to sleep... haa... so lame sia me... gtg end here le...

i missed all my friens n sister jasmin n my god family (2 LAO BA)side... ... keep in touch okie... miss u...

Tiring Week

2006-06-25T13:38:00.000+08:00

since monday to friday i've been working... was kinda tiring and sleepy... nearly fell asleep when doing my work on wednesday i think... really cannot take it... haa... my leg kanna blister... i wore those office wear de shoes... haiz... not realli comfortable loh... not used to it... i wore for two days then i hack care them... i wore t-shirt and jeans and snickers... haa... luckily they din scold me... haa...

yesterday went Jurong Point to expand my shoes... monday i'm taking them back... asked the pepople after two days then take out... haaa... scared later my leg pain again... haiz... berry tired... me going to update if i'm free after work... me now can't recall anything... haa...

Shopping

2006-06-18T21:29:00.000+08:00

long time didn't blog le... kinda lazy... tomorrow start work le... haven pack my things all that... lazy to do also... today went to my grandparent's house... celebrating Father's Day loh... 11 plus kanna woke up by ah ma's call... haiz... so sleepy... washed up and i went off... my gugu and shu shu and cousins all there... was eating loh... having lunch there... everyone cooked then brought to my ah ma's house... having a mini buffet loh... was kinda full... eat and eat... cause tomorrow can't eat such a nice feast liao... my work place no food court all that... have to bring my own food there... got shuttle bus brought us go don't know what toh guan there eat... but i don't want... later don't know my way back then die ar...

sure slim down de... haa... better... don't need to go jogging just to slim down... haa... after eating went Tampines... thought of buying clothers for my work... but tried so many le none suits me loh... i don't want wear like real adult loh... sure damn old de... haa... me wearing office wear... omg... don't know how i will look like... old? don't know leh... haa... then shop at Tampines mall... haa... jun, ning and i bought earrings... 3 for $2 at ice lemon tea... at first was jun and ning bought de... then they already had three and jun wanted other designs too... then i bought two and she bought another one more loh... haa...

now still slacking... so many things i wanted to buy but then now i will be working le... don't feel like spending money too much... if not sure broke again... haa... tink i gotta go and prepare my clothes for tomorrow le... haa...

STRESS!!!

2006-06-14T22:50:00.000+08:00

i'm here to blog... haiz... i'm FEEL SO STRESS... omg... everything so packed... haiz... so many things for me to do... n so mani appointments... realli have to come up with my own notebook... i'm goin bonker if my life comtinues like this... nxt monday i'll be working le... haiz... wondering how is it like... i really have to organise my schedule le...

i dunno y i had this weird feeling... is like i'm goin crazy... over wat? stupid thing actualli... y isn't someone online? isn't it stupid... i tink i better calm myself down if not i sure explode... haiz... tink betta dun write liao...

Sentosa

2006-06-11T15:02:00.000+08:00

yesterday went sentosa... kinda a long ride... damn tired... woke up early in the morning... went to ning's house to meet... around 7.30am went out... yawn yawn... not enough sleep... was watching world cup the night before yesterday... Germany VS Costa Rica... Germany won... haa... back to my trip... on my way, xiao jun called me from behind... then we walked together to ning's house... was preparing the food and waiting for them to get change... 8 plus alreay... alex goh and lois haven reached... was damn fed up... THEY WERE SO LATE... nvm... xiao jun, hamster and i went to mac and had our breakfast and at the same time went to buy film...

we just bought our food and they reached liao... lois haven reached only... she was overslept... that's what she told us... after we had our breakfast, two alex and anna then went to buy food... omg... asked them to eat fast... while i'm doing other thing... xiao jun remembered that the jelly was still at hing's house... then she called back and asked her mum to bring down... and also her contact lens... luckily her mum haven went off to work yet, if not we had to walked back and took the things ourselves... then around 9.30am, we went to take train le... ning called lois, she was taking bus... luckily she was on time as the train just came... then we went in... lois remembered she had to wait for hui min... cause hui min was helping out wit her dad and she did not know how to go sentosa... lois, anna and meilin alighted at sembawang and waited for hui min at Jurong East Mrt station...

reaching habourfront, went to take shuttle bus to sentosa... was a long queue man... omg... we took the fourth bus... imagine the crowd... hee... finally we reached le... we went to buy the admission tickets... was waiting for hui min they all... waited for quite long, jun called they all saying that they were at habourfront liao... but we waited for so long and about three or four shuttle bus also came le... there was no sign of them... then we went in and waited for blue line de bus service... jun called min... OMG... they still at dover... maybe jun just now heard wrongly or what loh... we also don't know... we went to fort siloso beach... was finding a place to settle ourselves... then was drizzling... omg... then started to rain... we packed our things and went to find shelter...

the rain was damn heavy... haiz... luckily the rain stopped around half an hour... went to find a place to settle ourselves... got shelter somemore... then we ate first... was damn hungry... here they came, we played volleyball... was fun... hee... my hand was red and pain... haa... after that went to the sea... just to washed away the sand... haa... was having a great time there... took lots of photos... after that, hui min wanna to canoe... but then nobody wanna accompany her cause din bring extra clothings all that... somemore vey ex loh... then we said next time... haa... then went back... we were using our fingers to write our names all that then took pict... took us a long time cause of the sea water... then hamster, hui min and me played with water... min and i splashed hamster then alex tay came to play also... omg... i was wet... then went up to the shore... was packing up... then we went to palawan beach...

the beach there was nice at night... the scenery so beautiful... we crossed the bridge... was so beautiful... the clouds snd ships all that... especially at night... wow... so cooling and beautiful... we stayed there till we finished up our dinner... then walked walked to take tram back... was taking photos along the way... was waiting so long... no tram leh... nvm... we walked to take yellow line de bus... was quite a short trip... was damn tiring... after that went to take bus back to habourfront mrt station... omg... the stupid seat made my shorts wet... i was so tired and i din realised got water and it was dark... the aircon's fault... then i changed seat... fianlly reached le, my shorts dry liao... fast sia... haa... better loh... if not uncomfortable loh... then inside the train, lois kept making me laugh and tickle me... omg... so pai seh loh... everyone looking at our big group... haa... then went home had a nice hot bath... smell so nice... haa... then went to sleep...

overall... although was a tiring day, it was fun and exciting... hee... thanks guys... hope ur also had enjoyed urselves yesterday...

Interview

2006-06-09T23:15:00.000+08:00

today was late for my interview... omg... i nearly bathed for one hour... what am i doing inside? i also don't know... i left my house at around 12.45pm... i ran and walked quickly to the control station... haiz... i called my agent sying that i will be late... i also asked her how to go... my interview time is 1pm yet i reached mrt station at 1pm... reached there around 1.20pm... then ran down to find that stupid block... so far loh... then finally reached le... filled in the form then we went off to the office there... drove us there... got another three malay gals... but they working as factory workers loh... went there filled in another form again...

went in there was kinda shocked... saw many workers loh... those aunties having their lunch loh... then the HR ppl interview me then let me do 20 questions of IQ questions... 20 mins... after that, she interviewed me again... asking me what values my parent had taught me, my hobbies all that... first time having such a long conversation just for an interview... after that, another HR ppl interviewed me... i tink all malaysians... after that, my agent drove me back to Jurong East Mrt station... on our way, we chat loh... then she told me a secret... saying that i passed the IQ test... then only ppl who got 15 out of 20 or above will be interviewed again and be selected... then she said i could guess i got how much... then i said 15 or above loh... but then she din tell my how much i got... cause she can't say...

my agent called me when i was inside the train... she told me that i passed them liao... omg... was damn happy... next week she will call me to confrim when i will be working... then she asked me don't go find other jobs liao... so happy... waiting for the good news... haa... YEAH!!! tomorrow going sentosa... gonna wake up damn early... but then i wanna watch world cup also... nvm lah... can wake up de... i'm going to pack my things liao... haven packed yet...

Boring

2006-06-08T23:39:00.001+08:00

haiz... today damn sianz... don't wish to go out also... just wanna be alone... but then in the end i still went out... actually i wanna go interview de... cause is at woodlands only then wanna try out loh... so damn unlucky... was walking to blk 851... when i was walking to circle green, it started raining... i was drenched... then was finding blk 851... when i realised the place was at the rock... i don't want go interview liao... strange rite? i also don't know why... haa...

then called ning... se whether she end school liao mah... i wanted to meet her after my interview first... but in the end i din go for tat interview... then i went to the library to return books... then was looking for books loh... at the same time, i was waiting for ning and hamster to meet me at causeway point... then xiao jun called ning... she at polyclinic... then also waited for her at cwp... after we finished shopping, we were waiting for hui min... she wanna go change shoes at woodland checkpoint there... we walked all the way there loh... while hamster was cycling... then we walked back... we went to the sea there near JB... looked like jungle loh... omg... then we walked all the way back to our house... was so tiring... then the sky was getting darker... then we walked very quickly... then walked past a road... they told me wat old mental hospital... then they wanna go there... i thought there were really patients there... but then i'm wronged... there were something eerie there... then hui min asked ning don't go in... then we ran back... actually xiao jun and i wanna take a look... but then kinda scared... hair standing sia... hee...

then we continued to walk back... then went woodland mart de mac... discussing about sat thing... but then haven come out wit an idea yet... tomorrow goin to continue our topic again... looking forward to saturday... haa... i'm hungry... haven had my dinner yet... haiz... going to find tidbits eat liao...

Confused

2006-06-07T23:56:00.000+08:00

yesterday was too exhausted to blog... went home very late and was very sleppy too... this few days, i kept staying up late... i don't know why... i'm exhausted but i'm not feeling sleepy... going to become an owl already... next, i'll become a panda... dark circles are coming out... OMG!!!today went amk... so sianz... while waiting for hui min to reach, ning, alex, anna, lao bi xiao xin, hamster and me went to patrick's shop... then saw wei sian and ah ben... was loitering at his shop... everytime went there sure like tat de... then went funland... the guys wanna play pool... i'm sitting there like a stupid fool... watching them play... then ning and i went to play para para... was damn fun... then went to have our dinner... after that, hui min came... then stayed at his shop till 8 plus then went home... cause the show gonna start soon...

my ear damn pain loh... yesterday went to pierce my ear... then today itchy hand go move the earring... i scared later stucked... haiz... not gonna touched it again...

why am i still thinking about him? why am i so worried about him when he's stressful? why why why? i still can't forget him... does he knows that i'm thinking of him day and night especially night time when i'm going to bed? i doubt he knows all this... am i dumb or something? finally his stress period is over...has he forgotten me anot? why am i thinking all this problems? i'm such a failure... should i give up anot? i myself also don't know... sometimes i kept thinking... will he come back and stay by my side forever? that was a foolish thought i had... what to do? i'm lost... how i wished everything could turn back... those happy moments we shared together... and those phone calls... i really cherished it... every night, when we finished chatting on msn, you would call me before i went to bed... everytime you got scolded by your dad because you haven sleep and still on the phone with me... you got all the scoldings just because of me... how i wish one night you will call me before i go to bed... i really wish...

i have been slacking throughout this week... i also don't know why... i feel nothing about my exam... not worried nor frightened... am i giving up or what? is my mind full of his images? i also don't what i am doing... i knew i'm tired for these few days but i just couldn't get to sleep... i even dreamt of us being together... how i wish it will come true... am i too naive of thinking of all these things? i wanna study... i don't want to regret again when everything is getting too late... sometimes i really feel like slapping myself in order to allow myself to wake up...

he finally stressed free... i'm happy for him too... but why am i keep on showing concern for him while not myself...

tonight i'm going to have a nice sleep... i'm really very tired le... this sat going to sentosa... YEAH!!!... i'm going to pour out everything there and enjoy myself... leaving no past memories... i hope i can do it... but i won't forget him forever... he will always be kept inside my heart... maybe everyone will think that i'm silly... i just can't bear to let him off my mind...

Jogging

2006-06-05T01:15:00.000+08:00

today i was having a nice sleep... slept till twelve then woke up... my right eye was feeling weird... could hardly open it... i guessed i might have sore eye... i looked at the mirror and i was right... OMG!!! my eye was damn red and swollen... but i hacked care... i washed up myself and had my lunch... noon time was so boring... nothing special happen too... was arranging all my songs and put inside the folder nicely... den online chat loh...

around four plus, i went to buy eye mo loh... really can't take it... very itchy... then was putting two drops on my eye... after awhile, my eye was getting better but still abit red loh... den around 6pm, went to meet ning, meilin, xiao jun, alex and anna... i went up to ning's house first then we went down... meilin haven reached loh... she's late... then we walked down to crescent park to wait for her... here she came and we started jogging... we jogged round the school... today i can't jog loh as in very exhausted... and after that swim on friday, my arm muscles ache... then jogged also pain pain... after one round i stopped... anna, ning and i went to the playground... was playing there loh... we still young mah... haa... alex, jun and meilin ran halfway then came to find us...

after that went up to ning's house again... was watching wei si li... ning's favourite loh... kept askin us to go back watched... had no choice loh... somemore we also tired liao... was discussing about sat events... YEAH!!! going swimming on thurs again... COOL!!! then very late le, my mummy kept calling me but i din picked up... scared later she scold... bad rite? hee...

around 11pm, ning and i went down... fetching hui min home... she working loh... the ppl there bullied her wor... around 10.50pm den asked her go home... then went pasa malam buy food while waiting for her to reach the control station... went home kanna nagged... but only for five mins only... now is 1.36am... better finished up what i wanna do... i'll stop here...

Celebration of Yokez Lao Ba's Birthday

2006-06-04T02:22:00.000+08:00

today is another enjoyable and memorable day... this evening went to Marina Bay de Pin Xian to have steamboat... at around 1pm, i went to Causeway Point to buy my lao ba de present... was thinking of what to buy... realli shang nao jin... then walked past 77th street... then i thought of buying those guys type de necklace for her... then was choosing... so many different kinds of pattern loh... had a hard time choosing too... then i just bought a brown one for her...

after that, i went to shop... cause it's still early and i went off at 5pm plus to take train down to Marina Bay... i was the first one to reach there loh... then i msg joyce... she asked me to call mx cause pl and her reached liao... i tried looking for them but there was no sign of them... i called them and they were at city link i think... they were buying present... after which, pl and mx reached liao... was waiting for the others to come... OMG!!!... they reached there at around 7 plus... haa... i gave lao ba de present and asked her to wear it everytime wor... and she promised me... haa... hao gan dong wor...

we went to take the van to Pin Xian... the auntie lied to us loh... said what the seats over there very cooling... hell loh... freaking damn hot sia... was sweating like hell... my face was damn red loh... how i knew it??? hee... from the pict which pl took for wang ri and me... seems that i was drunk but i'm not... i'm just feeling damn hot... haa...after that, went to the bowling centre... so cool man... was wating for joyce and sky to come back from the toilet...

my lao ba suggested to go to the beach... we walked quite a distance and it's so damn dark... joyce and sky waited for us at the bus stop... can't even see loh... was holding on to mx daddy's hand... we sat on the rock there... was so cool... there were so many stars twinkling on the sky... i felt so relax... the cool breeze was blowing towards my face... it seems like the breeze blew away all my unhappy moments... how i wish i can go there with my bf if got chance... was damn romantic there... AM I DREAMING??? then chunz, sandra and yokez lao ba were singing... english, chinese and even hokkien songs... damn funny loh... they shouted at the top of their voices too... go home must drink herbal tea if not sure kanna sore throat... *TOUCHWOOD*... after that we walked back to find joyce and sky... was waiting for bus to Marina Bay de control station...

we took photos inside the train... we went back Admiralty... went to the residential corner to cut cake... chunz accompanied joyce back to her house to bring the cake down... meanwhile while waiting, sand, mx, yokez, pl and me were taking photos... was so funny loh... i snatched mx daddy's lao gong and pl snatched mine loh... jealous liao loh... haa...

here comes the cake... joyce baked de hoh... don't play play... haa... sang birthday song and everybody kai dong le... the cake was nice... cheesecake somemore... my favourite loh... i liked the strawberry de... very sweet... haa... after that, we were like rushing home...

was damn tired but was having lots of fun together... long time din have such gathering le... now is 2.53am le... and i'm still blogging... gonna sleep soon liao...

Enjoyable Day

2006-06-02T23:20:00.000+08:00

today was so damn fun... went swimming with ning, hui min, xiao jun, anna, lois, adeline, hamster and alex... we went Jurong de swimming complex... i was packing my stuff then lois called and asked me go her house first... OMG!!!she was still packing loh... after that we went ning's house first cause hamster wanted to go her house... was so troublesome loh... after that, lois n i went admiralty place to have our lunch cause both of us was so damn hungry... we two went off first...

after which, i called xiao jun... everyone was waiting for her... meanwhile, i remembered something... lois n i forgot to buy something... our shampoo and body bath... was like running towards guardian... haa... after we came back we saw xiao jun... den we went off to take train... on the way received hui min's msg... she was going to reach... OMG!!!... was like rushing... hui min was waiting for us at Jurong after her school... reached chinese garden and we walked quite a distance before we reached... went toilet to change... went to rent two floats...

we went to play e wave and the walked round round thing... don't what's that call... haa... was having fun there... and we found two more floats... we went to take cause it seems nobody wants them... then went off to play e slide... the yellow coloured slide closed today... haiz... we went to play the pink and the blue one... ning, xiao jun, anna and i were like OMG!!!... we were quite scared... i went up and my leg numbed loh... haa... actually was okie loh... not really very scared... i found it exciting loh... next time i wanna go again... was damn fun... we went to returned the floats... the uncle very slow... haiz... so many people flood my hp loh... haa... kinda sorri wor... was swimming...

we had our dinner at kfc... the worst thing was adeline lost her wallet... couldn't be found... after that we went home... it was raining... so suay sia... i took out my towel cause i don't want to get wet... just had a bath only loh... went pasa malam buy muah chee... my favourite sia... haa... then went ning's house watched 9pm channel 8 show... no time to go home watch...

i had such a great fun today and i won't forget... Today is (2nd June 2006)... Looing forward to next saturday... we are goin sentosa... hee... finally can go together...